My First Take-off & Landing Experience

I did my first take-off with my instructor beside me yelling and shouting "maintain center line! Don't use brake MY DEAR! " 3 to 5 times i guess..haha! Actually i'm confused..He wanted me to put my nose gear exactly on the center line, orait i press left rudder then suddenly he said to me don't press the brake but actually i'm not! but its ok as long as i maintain straight 59 kt i pull back the stick, 300 ft positive rate of climb, brakes on/off, 70 kt, flaps up, 80kt, 400 ft right clear, front clear, left clear right clear, 500 ft right turn to bachok. Climbing 1000 ft will call again establish Bachok.

I did my landing twice with the same instructor a week after my first take-off. After me and my batchmate running chain in the air, i did my air exercise as usual then after 1 hour, call tower for rejoin, then overhead KB town, i entered late downwind, just before final, my instructor said to me, "Ok now i want to see you take-off, so now you land the aircraft then take-off" ( Touch n Go ) huhu! i like! This was the best moment because i actually control and land the aircraft on my own with only just 4 hours of flying.. Then after i manage to center the aircraft, he said maintain 2 fingers on the dashboard with the runway, the he shouted at me, maintain center line, ok i maintain then slowly the aircraft sink and touch down..( smooth beb) then he shouts " Full PAR! Full PAR! " ok 59 kt rotate as usual, then i don't why suddenly i lose my focus, supposedly i maintain the stick backward but my hand was shaking and tiring so i didn't realize actually i push forward.." What are you doing? you idiot! "he said. "sorry sir" " im not focusing sir" i replied back..Then on final, clear to land runway 10, that time my head still thinking about my mistake, i couldn't focus, i manage to land but it was really really a very hard landing.."Congratulation you have damage the bloody aircraft!" he said. I smile to him and said "I know sir"..Haha!

PAR = Power
Running Chain = switch student